Don’t Get Comfortable.

I have 5 weeks and 6 days until I leave for my biggest Spirit-led adventure yet. And I haven’t blogged in much longer than that…woops. Life’s getting real, really fast. To be honest, I haven’t posted in so long because no matter what I type, it doesn’t seem like enough to justly describe exactly what God is doing in my life–because half of the time, I don’t have that figured out myself.

But I don’t have to have it all figured out, and that is a humongous relief. When it comes to my Cambodia internship, I still cry every time I realize that it’s real. Not the sad kind of tears, but more like the I-still-can’t-believe-this-is-finally-happening tears that have been welling up inside for years at a time, waiting for the moment to be set free. This is the cross-cultural ministry opportunity I have been praying for. It’s exhilarating and also terrifying.

What has been really tough to master is my state of mind in between the present and my departure. I love telling people about Cambodia and what I’m going to do there and sharing my joy and excitement; but at the same time, I don’t want to underestimate the 5 weeks and 6 days left until then. I don’t want this season to become all about Cambodia. After all, I’ll have a whole season there soon enough!

Why is it so much harder to appreciate the in-between moments? In fact, I hate calling them in-between. They aren’t in-between anything, they’re life as we’re living it. These 5 weeks and 6 days don’t deserve any less than the entire summer I’m spending overseas. One song that has been on my mind a lot lately is Brandon Heath’s Don’t Get Comfortable, and the chorus says:

“I am gonna show you what I mean. I am gonna love like you’ve never seen. You are gonna live like you used to dream, this is your new song.” And that’s just it. Living like I used to dream doesn’t have to wait until when I get on that plane and head into the great unknown. My favorite part of the song, though, is the very beginning. (That’s right. Not in between.) :

“Comfortable? Don’t get comfortable. I am gonna move this mountain, then I’m gonna move you in.”

This season of anticipation is hard to handle. But I was never meant to be comfortable, I was meant for life and life to the full. And there’s no way to be in-between on that one.